I conquered my taxes! ::does a little dance:: Go me! Go me!
I am off to go home, celebrate easter with the family and get drunk with my best friend. ^^

....now if only my term papers would be this simple....

So, I've come to the realisation that papers make me a little...spaztic.
Like, a lot.
Like, god, I'm glad no one's around to see me act like a complete retard as I talk to my self, gesature wildly to -no one-, hit myself in the head with things and generally carry on like I've lost my damn mind.
o.o
Just trust me, it's scray, children.
I just have to remember that even though the lovely laptop ::huggles:: is now very light does not mean that I can throw it around the way I do everything else.

Thank God spring break offically starts at 7:10pm today.
....I'm going to ignore the large stack of homework I'm bring home with me.

DEZU! I need a drink. ::sniffles:: promise me a drink this weekend? ::puppy dog eyes::

Paper number 2 done. Still one more to do before friday morning. Am going to bed now.

School work's still killing me, but I've got the first paper done!

One down, two to go!

So, good news: Cute boy asked me out! ::squeal!::
Bad news: I'm going home for a month before we'll be able to do anything together. ::sniffles::

But we will both be going to the SociGrad Club christmas party. And we have another class together next semester.

Papers are due next week, so no social life before then. But at least the end of this hellish semester is in sight!



"Trust in reason is not grounded in reason alone...
Critique does not aim at the truth but at the reflective disclosure of possibility...
Confidence does not require certainty; but it does require a successfully reflective and open relation to our ideals and our practices..."
- "Disclosing Possibility: The Past and Future of Critical Theory" Nikolas Kompridis

Well, I managed to get the homework for tomorrow done. I had planned on doing it tomorrow morning, but, um, sleeping wasn't happening easily tonight so I figured I'd go ahead and do it now. Why couldn't I sleep? .....Paranoia has reared its ugly head once more. The reason? Apparently, sometime recently, someone has been sitting or standing literally two feet or less away from my bedroom window smoking. Extensively.

o.o

Now, most likely, especially given the obvious nature of how they've been smoking, whoever's been doing it probably doesn't mean any harm. Still. Kind of creepy. Add in the fact that when the neighbors upstairs step out on their balcony to talk, as they seem to love to do at 1 or 2 in the morning, it sounds like someone standing next to my window taking, getting to sleep at night has not been as simple as it should be.

Yes, I'm aware of the fact that I'm overly paranoid. It's a way of life. >.<;

Plus, living in an apartment stinks. Especially when the feds have come a’ knocking about two different neighbors. O.o Seriously. We had federal marshals asking us all kinds of questions last time.

>.< I don't wanna go to tuesday class, I don't wanna go to tuesday class....

I'm gonna fail. ::whimpers::

Considering a C is failing, I'm in so much trouble right now.

I am apparently incapable of figuring out what I don't know. My teachers are always asking for us to bring in questions for the class, but the only questions I can ever come up with are ones which I already think I know the answer to. This wouldn't normally be such a problem, except Prof. Jacobs insists on such a method and essentially only teaches through it. Hence -> failure. ::cries::

This is so going to slaughter the awesome GPA which I need to apply to doctorate programs.

Is school over yet? Is it sad that I can't wait to have a real job?

Oh. Good news, however, is that I only have to take two in-class courses next semester. Stats is required, and hopefully I'll fill my last elective with globalization. Then there's the thesis. See that dark cloud hanging over my shoulder? Yep, that's it. I think I'm going to look at class status mobility in the military, ut I haven't done any background research yet to see if it's viable. I have a population sample in mind to study, so at least figuring that part out would be easy. And it would be something other than fanfiction. As much fun as writing a thesis on fanfiction was, I wanna diversify a little.

Okay, feeling a little calmer having written this. Now if I can just survive tomorrow....crap. Paper draft for evil tuesday class is next week. Guess I need to survive tomorrow and the week after. ::hangs head:: Well, I guess I'll just have to party my butt off for halloween to make up for the hellish semester. ^^ Bist du bereit zu betrunken werden, meine Freundin?

I don't have class tonight. ^^ So sweet. We had to turn in a short paper, but at least I didn't have to go through the anxiety of trying to think of something to say in class.

I even got my paper done a fe hours before it was due. o.o That's unusual for me.

The brother is visiting for the next week. So is the mum. So the whole family is going to be squeezing into our little apartment. Hopefully it'll go well. I think it will. John and I have been getting along a lot better as of late. ^^ no more dreams about him trying to slit my throat. Hehhehe. Now when he does pop up in one of my dreams, we're working together to kill other people, and arguing the whole time. this is an improvement for me.

In honor of our visitors, I actually cleaned a little. Unusual for me, I knoow. Don't worry, I didn't do much. I did clean off my desk however. (John misses the internet when he's playing soldier, so he borrows my internets.) o.o I forgot how nice it was to have a clean desk. I feel like I ought to do something productive...I'm actually hoping to squeeze in some writing this week, maybe.

In other news, I had my first incounter with those door to door religious people. The brother is due to get here any moment, so when someone knocked on the door, I went to open it. And for the record, I did check the peep whole, but the guy had his head down and looked a lot like my brother coming from work. He was even short like my brother. It was funny.

So that was a first. ^^ It reminded me of a certain someone's stories about scandalizing mormons. Ah, fun times.

So yes, today looks good. I got a lot of work to do before class tomorrow, but I should have enough time to do all of it.

Since I'm done a little early today, I might go shoot some zombies. The boy's going to reclaim his wii the whole week he's home, so I won't have a chance to for a while. ::sniffles::

Today was good. I talked some in class, which I have unusally not been doing this semester. ^^ But we finally got onto to domination of culture <- is so my topic. The millions of Beavers came from that. Long story, but my classmates thought it was hilarious. I guess it was just the mental image of millions of beavers trying to live in a small patch of land....after hours of heavy theory, the absurd is funnier than it should be.

Anyhue. Good news... I wrote another chapter of my hp/naruto fic yesterday during class! This is the first chapter I've been able to finish in about two months. ^^ Hopefully this means the writer's block is over, and the only thing I have to worry about is time managment.

^^ I also got to talk to the cute boy from class today. things have not been going as well as I'd like on that front, but they improved today.

Still shooting zombies on the Wii. XD Way too much fun!

Sooo....the doctorate level class (Institutions and Inequalities) is sooooo kicking my butt three ways from sunday.

O.O I mean, really. Oh my God. I'm going to have to sell a liver to make this work. I mean, I understand most of the readings and I can follow most of the conversations in class ( as long as they don't get too specific in the examples - way too many people in this class have done indepth ethnographic work in the third world and make me feel like an idiot when I don't know the political history of Barszil)....um, what was I saying? oh yeah, it's killing me. >.< Oddly enough, the worst part is not the readings, and not the class discussions, it's trying to come up with a discussion question to post on the message board the night before class. I am aparently a failure at coming up with questions and I don't know why. The only explaination I can come up with is that I just don't have enough experience.

::flinches:: I feel realy young and small.

>.< Is the semester over with yet?


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Oh, on another note, I really don't like this lack of health insurance thing - but in classic me style, the more concerned I am about soemthing, the less likely I am to do anything about it.

^^; I had a bit of a scare this weekend. All day Sunday I was dizzy. Like, from the moment I woke up, it felt like my bed was tilting back and forth. Nothing like feeling sea sick when you're laying down. While this phenomena is not too unsual for me, I've never had it last almsot ALL day! A minute or two, sure, but not over and over again the whole day! Nothing else was wrong with me, but nothing eliviated it either. ^^; It wasn't fun. Reading hurt, watching tv hurt, laying down hurt, standing made me feel like I was going to pass out. I was starting to get a little worried that something might really be wrong this time. I mean, I knew it was probably nothing, but it was kind of bothersome.

I've never been without health insurance before. It's suprisingly nerve racking.

Thankful it mostly cleared up by today! Yay!

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Um, other than that, I got to shoot a bunch of zombies on the Wii? XD
Oh, and there was a CSI: New York marathon on Spike.
Yay for dead things! XD

^^ Well, I survived another day. Today's class was Juvenile Deliquency. It's sort of interesting, but the teacher doesn't expect much out of us, so I don't bother working much. ^^;; Last class I plotted out the second half of my Julian novel. This class I worked on the HP/Naruto thing. Been having some serious writer's block on that one, but I think I might have figured it out. It seems like every time I get stuck in that story, the solution is simply to change the point of view. (^^ in this case I switched to Naruto's. Always fun to write.)

In other news, the Sociology Graduate Student club met today for the first time. Which is awesome. They're all really interesting people. They've got a lot of big plans, but I also think they're laid back enough to know their limitations. I'll probably be putting together the web page, though, which means I got to figure out how to do everything. I don't think it will be too bad. GMU provides the space, and some help. ^^ Then of course, there are also all those WONDERFUL friends of mine which I will probably be hitting up for help. Mahhahahaha. Though I'm sure I can find out how to do anything I need just by researching it through the internet and not through pestering my friends.

So yes, over all an okay day. A little more busy than I would have liked, but hey, I'm inheriently lazy.

Hey, it was REALLY late at night when I wrote it and I don't have time right now to do anything with it.

Still not real comfortable with the whole community thing and I wanna make sure it's okay before I post it. I think I got a liiiittle off topic. But the first thing I could think of when looking at a blue tub was that Nikki and Skylar so need to have that in their shitty apartment. They end up in the bathroom a lot - which is a long story and not nearly as kinky as it sounds. So yeah, this is more of a character study that a good response to the picture......::snoggles Nikki and Skylar::

Um, this might make absolutely no sense unless you've read my latest unfinished attempt at the novel-that-would-not-be-written - The Silent Killer



( Painting a Tub Blue )

....I now remember why writing is bad for my education. So I may have sorta stayed up until 4:30 last night...Urgh. I have a nasty habit of not being able to stop once I start writing something.

Still haven't done any work on the HP/Naruto fic. I do have a chapter semi -ready for the Hp/CSI fic, but I have to clean it up and I've been too lazy to do so lately.

^^ I also made the most out of a boring class yesterday and plotted out a rough outline for the second half of my Julian story. ::snoggles character:: Maybe I'll cheat this nanowrimo and instead of writing a new one, finish the one from last year.

Do I get a cookie for remembering how to use this thing?

^^ Congrats, Dezu, you have lured me back with talk of fic.

I will attempt to be more social.....

I am in the middle of modifying your journal. O_O The mudkips are helping.

Will be done by Monday morning! ^__^


^_______________^ UNDER CONSTRUCTION

O_O Mood theme test

Look at that, this thing still works!

D E A D.




Exams are officaly over. I shall sleep for a week.

So, I didn't finish my novel, and the month is at it's end. It sucks, but at least I do have plans of finishing it once this semester ends. I just haven't had time for the past two weeks to write at all. Literaly. I managed over 22,000 in two weeks, and absolutely nothing for the next two. I know what I want to do in the story, the characters will not leave me be, but lately I've just been too wiped out by school work to even think about using my brain. XD Trust me, it's been showing, the lack of using my brain. Anyhue. I'm kind of at an odd point right now. I'm feeling a little more rested and have been very eager to get back to tackling the novel, but I have a TON of school work yet to do. A short paper to write tonight, a book to read, two english essays to write, each about 7 pages long, and a 12 page research paper to do. Not to mention a German exam which is either going to save my ass or kill me. At the moment, it's definatley looking like the later....probably shouldn't talk about German. It usualy involves a lot of bad words. ^^; I enjoy the class, it just doesn't like me. ::sighs:: What can I say? ^^;
Anyhue. Farewell to November and NaNoWriMo. Maybe I can manage a second place honor by finishing before the end of December.

POTTER! Xd Not always true to the books and a little ackward in places, but still freakin' great! XD